Life is Easier Alone

As humans walking this earth, we have to interact with each other. But lately I've been feeling like my life would be better off if I just walked it alone.

Not to say that I don't love anyone in my life, its just that at the end of the day all you have is yourself. Its time I start putting myself first.

As an aquarius, I want to spread love to as many people as I can. I am intuitive about who to spend my time with, but at the end of the day I want to do as much as I can for everyone around me. But sometimes people are not capable of recognizing how much I do for them or how hard I am trying, and I must say it hurts me.

I want to give love to the world, but I need to give it to myself first.

When You Have a Good Day...

You remember that song 'Bad Day' by Daniel Powter? Well, I had the opposite of that today. I had a great day, despite waking up at 8am after going to bed at 3 for no apparent reason. I started my day off with a nice refreshing shower. The rest of my day was fairly busy but full of good stuff. Sushi, picking a secret santa, even going to class at 5 wasn't that bad.

I'm feeling good. I had a great night last night too. It feels so good to be free at last.

We're a few weeks out from Thanksgiving and then Christmas break, fall semester is nearly over! This is absolutely insane.

The only thing that could have made this day better would be a hug from Mom and Dad.

Katies of Novembers Past

It truly is miraculous how we change every single day. Things happen, people show their colors and we learn new things that change our perspective. Each day my head and my heart become more acquainted and knowledgeable of how the other works. It is not without pain that we learn.

It's a funny thing when you know how something is going to turn out, but you're still surprised at the outcome. He hurt me once, twice, three times. And now I have peace of mind. I can no longer act stupid and ignorant toward it. What hurts most is knowing that you can't change anyone and how they act or think. What's right is right in their brain. That's all there is to it. I am alone in my own mindset and intelligence. I have a specific method for how things should be done, that doesn't mean that everyone has that same mindset.

I bring up changing because we are nearing the end of 2014, by some strange act of God. I remember the person that I was just a year ago, two years ago. I am not either of those people. I am a better version of those girls. I know so much more a year later, and I simply cannot believe it.

Right now I'm feeling at peace with everything, despite the hurt I've experienced firsthand this weekend alone. I am lucky to have wonderful people in my life who provide me with nothing but joy. From now on I need to listen to my intuition and stop trying to suppress it.

Your first feeling about something is always the right feeling.