My Biological Best Friend

She is everything. Sometimes I am caught off guard with moments of clarity, of a memory that we have shared. A smile or a laugh. I can feel her hugs and embrace even when I am miles away.
In my worst moments, the one thing that I know would help me is her wise word.
My love for her goes deeper than anything I can describe.
My one, unmoving rock. No matter what words I throw at it, it will not be moved.
In exchange for all of the fresh egg sandwiches, $20 bills, packed lunches, organized closets, new ballet shoes, textbooks and novels- you have my unwavering adoration.
The time will come when I will provide for you the way you always have for me.
And you are so deserving.
A fearful tear comes to my eye when I think of leaving you, for months and weeks to come.
My fingers tremble at the thought of being away from my mother.
But with all the unwavering love you have shown me, I know I have nothing to truly be afraid of.

Thank you for all you have taught, given, and shown me. With my entire life in your hands you shaped me to be just as strong and smart as you are. Now is the time that I get to prove it to you, and you get to marvel at all your hard work.

Everything I have, I got from you. I love you Mommy.

Firework

With you, it's been back and forth a thousand and one times.
From pure love to pure anger and hatred, I've felt every ounce of it
Shock and unsettled emotion
One endearing look is all it takes
Maybe I'm too kind,
letting you have such power
But I can't argue with my heart

When I see us
I visualize a firework
Brightness igniting and lighting the dark
The sound of your breath is louder than the impact
and the feel of your hand is more electric than the chemistry

The days that it is the most simple
are the easiest
I forget my pride for a moment
and let you in

Judgment blurred but I see it all
Straight past my insecurities and
into your arms.