Hey, blog. Last time we spoke I was still college bound. Now look at me, I'm a fully assimilated college freshman (sophomore according to my credits.) It wasn't easy to be as happy as I am right now. In fact, right now I should be studying for my art history exam, but for me, procrastination breeds creativity. So, I decided to write, or, type.
So lets see, when I first got here, I hated it. People were running wild and trying to shove their personalities in everyone's faces. It was embarrassing, really. I was scared of my roommate because she's different than me. I was lonely, even though I had friends. I was missing my family like crazy. I wanted nothing more to be home and wondered if I had even made the right choice by going away to college.
Flash forward about 2 months or so.. I am so extremely happy and thrilled to be here everyday. I love the freedom. Its all about me! I make all my own choices and its really liberating, honestly. I don't call my mom every day. Hell, we barely text. Of course I miss her, but we have separate lives now. She's focused on my brothers, and I'm focused on getting my shit done and having a good time. And I'm doing it.
Being a college student means something different for everyone. There's nobody exactly like me, but there are more similar people than there were at home. Its so cool. I get to decide who I want to be, what I want to do. If that means get my homework done and then have a mixed alcoholic beverage on a monday night in my dorm, I can do that. Its awesome.
I have great friends, and I'm making more every day. One thing thats a little iffy is the boy situation. I'm not a one night stand type of girls, and I feel like a lot of the sexual contact here is like that. That's the kind of thing you can't decide, unfortunately. (when you want to be in a relationship.) Deep down I know that right now can't be the right time for me to have a guy in my life, otherwise I would have one. Although it would be pretty nice to have someone to just hang out with and watch movies and hold hands. It'll come one day.
Well, I thought this blog could use an update, so I gave it to you. I like reading my old posts, it shows the person I was then and I can even tell how I've changed mentally. This semester is almost over, which is crazy. But I will try my hardest to write more posts for anyone who would like to read them. I'm hoping they can be a bit helpful.
"learn a little, give in, and love it"
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