Why Stress?

Life seems to drag on, yet when we look back it, it feels like it was yesterday. I've been feeling that way about a lot of things lately. Even opening up my blog, the last time I've posted was January 31st. Say what? I even got a request from someone to post on this blog. So here I am.

So, what's new? Well, as for school, it sucks. Everything is a challenge for me lately. It's become even more of a hassle to do schoolwork or study for tests. I'm very indifferent towards it.

Financial aid packages have been arriving, one after another. Oh, and also I got into Drexel! Very excited about that one. I plan on visiting during my spring break. Anyway, it seems that the schools that I don't really want to go to are giving me the most money. It always works that way, doesn't it? But I don't want to settle for mediocre. Not that Quinnipiac on a dean's scholarship is mediocre. It just feels that way to me. I don't see how this decision will be made within the next month and a half. May 1st and deposits are due. Well, that came quickly didn't it?

Feeling melancholy about several things, I broke down crying this week to my mother. I am so ridiculously concerned with colleges.. Worrying about the money is driving me nuts. My mom made it all better. She reassured me that loans aren't the worst things to have, and I want so badly to believe her.  So now Northeastern is back in my head. If loans aren't the worst thing, then how bad could $200,000 be on your credit? Okay I'm making myself feel worse.

Since I've seen you guys last, I turned 18! I had a lovely birthday and spent it with my friends and family. My best friend Abby treated me to a manicure and pedicure, it was so sweet. And I got a car! It's nothing crazy, but it's perfect for me! A 2000 Honda Accord, in an ever changing color. If you saw it, you'd know what I meant.

There's something great about this blog. It's 11:37 pm right now and my mind is settled. Putting all of my ongoing thoughts into words makes it seem not so big anymore. There are obstacles. I'm going to face them head on. There are decisions. I'm going to make them. It's all going to be alright in the end.
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